Aug 22, 2011

Flying Solo.

I'm fresh off of a very liberating weekend. I got a RIDICULOUS amount of things done. And got in some quality me time.

Here's the deal. My roommate and alot of my friends were out of town. Both nights (Friday and Saturday) I found friends to visit with, because, come on, a Saturday night at home alone just makes me sad. But, both nights, I was home sober and cuddly in bed before midnight. Also, atypical.

I spent two full days by myself. This is something I've been avoiding since I haven't had manfriend. When alone, I melt down. Might seem pathetic, but that's just how I deal. I have to stay distracted. This weekend, I made up my mind to just be alone, wake up early, be productive and make all responsible choices. Hi, just thinking about doing that is a corner turned for me.

This might seem a little dependent to some of you, but it's a big deal for me. So, I made a list and executed. I completed a couple projects around my house, got a couple workouts in, ran errands, watched an entire mini series, started a new book (what the hell?) and ate pretty healthy all weekend! I'm really proud. 

There was a moment or two when the sads creeped up, but mostly, I just basked in the me-ness of my couple of days. Yesterday I went to layout at Barton Springs Pool...


I was there, just little old me, and forgot my headphones. I realized this after I paid to get in, so I spent 2 hours just laying. Thinking. Looking around. Some light texting. People watching. It was actually lovely...hot as all get-out, but lovely. I treated myself to a snow cone on my way out and it was absolutely perfect. I never let myself have sugary treats like that. 

So, I'm here to report that I think I did a tiny bit of growing up these last couple of days. I was nervous about totally de-railing, but it was honestly a milestone reached. It's sort of a weird, small, selfish thing that I'm so proud to have done. My nugget of wisdom gained:


The prince is super depressed without our roommates, but I'm loving that he's forced to cuddle only me. Maybe that's why I'm so euphoric about the weekend...puppy affections all to myself.

Stay tuned, we'll see how next weekend goes. I expect to be fiending for some debauchery by then.... Let's be serious people, two weekends in a row? I don't think so.

Happy Monday!

4 comments:

  1. Im so glad that you had such a productive (errands-wise and emotion-wise) weekend! These are awesome big steps in being a happy and healthy person. And, it's ok to be sad and break down. I have been the victim of it too, but it's healthy. Super proud of you! :)

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  2. Good for you! I am absolutely the same way - I need to be around people all the time. However, I did the same during all of Friday/Sat/Sun daytime. I got so much done, feel much less stressed, more organized and relieved.

    I love that you are being so brave - it takes a lot to climb out of those dumb breakups. You keep being the strong, beautiful, independent woman that you are! Meanwhile, I am sure THE guy will come along when you least expect it. Until then - keep enjoying your me-ness! ;) Hugs!

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  3. Sounds like an absolutely wonderful weekend! I'm very happy for and proud of you Case.

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  4. Good for you! I was stuck in a city in which I knew no one after my last breakup (I had moved there for him!), so I had a lot of those days. I have decided you have to go through them in order to be ready for what's ahead. Good for you for enjoying them...that just means you're getting stronger! Good luck

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Thanks for the comment! I"m sending you a big cuddly warm bearhug through the interwebs....

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